- August 15th, 2011
So it has been about
six months TOO LONG since I have posted anything. Sorry for that.
After a LONG summer, several personal set backs, both emotionally and physically, it's time for the schools to return to session, and with that, I must return to work. Worry not, my intrepid readers, as I actually ENJOY going back to work. It gives me a set schedule to judge the rest of my life against and help me balance things in proportion to their actual weight in life.
So, lets update the summer...
It started with the passing of my beloved grandmother, Mrs. Madonna J. Gallivan. While she had been in failing health, the last few months especially, I cannot stress how much of a setback this was to me. She is one of the 5 people who raised me. I know that sounds odd, as most people are only lucky enough to have their parents, and some only have one parent at that, but hear me out. From the time I was old enough to remember, some 27 of my 31 years on this rock, I had seen my grandmother almost every day. From growing up in her house in the early years, to living two blocks away in my teen years, living with her to help take care of my ailing grandfather during the "college years" (that term is subjective as I've now been in college since the summer of '98) barely a day went by that I didn't see or talk to my grandmother. And then, one morning, she was gone.
I won't go into the heartbreak and emotions behind everything as any of you can understand what it would feel like.
Less than a week later, I lost one of my dearest and oldest friends. While she didn't die, family emergencies on both ends caused some friction between us, and we parted ways. While we have, over the last decade, had several such situations arise, this one simply feels final. In the span of a week, I lost two of my best friends.
To clear my mind, I rejoined the world of academia. Not much can really be said other than, I watched a lot of film, wrote a lot of papers, passed with flying colors, and my, just may have finally found a mentor like figure.
Physical setbacks include a lot of failing health in a short period of time. I look to the stand by excuses of "grief" and "gluttony" for this one. Through grief, i have been chain smoking a lot lately, and it's starting to take it's toll on my breathing, specifically when sleeping or working out. With Gluttony, i have been eating alot lately, taking its toll on my waistline and my desire to work out. Long of the short, i gained back almost all the weight I lost for the movie, and put on a few more pounds to boot. If youre keeping track at home, thats an almost 45lb swing in 3 months.
Which brings us to the movie.
I sat down and looked at the edits I had made thus far and come to the conclusion that I didn't really know what I was looking for when i started. I now have, at least in my mind's eye, a feel for things. That being said, reworking what i had done is just as time consuming as if I had simply restarted from scratch. While it's a HUGE setback, I'd rather do it and take the time, than slap together a piece of horse shit.
that's all I've got for now, check back in as I try to come up with more writings on a somewhat more regular basis.